the color of storms, shadows, and rain

eurgh I can't tell how much not feeling good is ...physical and how much is depression creeping on (nor how much of that is ...seasonal? well, how much is attributable to day length in particular, mostly. There are definitely bad memories for me about this season.)

Mind, last week I was in my almost-inverted schedule state, but that usually results in somewhat insufficient sleep even when I am not grasping at the straw of "just staying up through it" to try to readjust it, so I may also be experiencing accumulated tiredness. :/

Went for a walk ~yesterday (well. Sunday. it's technically Tuesday as I write this but I'm still in Monday's wakefulness), which was nice, but a) I think I may have gotten slightly too much sun to my face or something, as there was very little shade, and... I scratched some of it and now it... kind of hurts, and b) [I've been struggling to get up the courage to go in for a significant dental issue which in the meantime has the side effect that] I've been having trouble eating and haven't been walking a lot which combination I think caused the otherwise moderate walk to deplete my energy and that also made me feel blah.

other minor slightly gross issue

And I think I have a small boil, again, near where a bra band would normally sit... which isn't quite where it's been the couple times before when this has happened, but pretty close, and is also slightly painful :P

Tonight we made tomato-based beef-vegetable soup again and it tasted pretty good... I have been very grateful for soup in recent times due to the teeth issue.

I've watched a few somewhat older movies I had never seen in the past few weeks (Mean Girls, Labyrinth), although they are... not new favorites. I may have gotten distracted from the latter by the thought that a certain terf may have used a line (someone messing up Hoggle's name) to name a major thing...

( project details )

And I don't think I've really mentioned here but I'm taking a few online classes via the local community college and they're ...sort of going well (one has finished thanks to being an eight week session but I haven't managed to get signed up for the following class as I had meant to...), although I have my annoyances (one instructor hasn't posted any grades for over a month 😐) and I am running up against the gauntlet of mid-semester bureaucracy, due to things I need to do (including that following class) that are not going as smoothly as I would've liked. 🙃

tbqh the prospect of trying to get back and finish my bachelor's degree at the four year university has felt scary the past few days

thanks in part to some activity on r/BobbinLace, I have been looking at some bobbin lace stuff tonight, and I stumbled across a few things of interest:

• blog post on making a bolster pillow out of straw (this also made me realize that ...straw is something I could potentially order from Tractor Supply, for both pillow making purposes, and gardening purposes--for which case I have been vexed for some time about how to actually obtain straw when I thought it might be the best mulch for my situation...)
• and from the same person, on making block pillow segments out of industrial felt (this might be a source? Though still kinda pricey)
• and a type of Italian tape lace, Cantù...?
• (this roller pillow lace kit, listed at Mielke's, might offer inspiration for a possible bolster pillow stand design)
• reminder that Snowgoose, Van Sciver, and Lacis are major bobbin lace (and often to some extent other laces) suppliers in the US; Mielke's also carries a few things (and netting needles and gauges. Although so far as I know 50% of the netting-interested people in my circle is not in the US.) 
• a bobbin lace terminology translator, via Jo Edkins' really pretty helpful site
• (while I'm at this stuff, The Lace Museum's Virtual Classes in various techniques, which I wish I felt more prepared to take; IOLI doesn't have a lot of online info in my experience (at least without membership?), but they might be a way to find local lace people*. And their convention this year is in Nashville, TN)
• (aside from IOLI's library, the Embroiderers' Guilde of America also has some lace books in their library (...also a membership thing.)
• here are a few more random lace pillow results of varying relevance (not sure how much I trust current search engines to reliably turn them up again)
• (and a page about a Vermeer painting of bobbin lace, and a random history of some bobbin laces from archive.org)
• not about bobbin lace--
• blogger from those first two pillow making posts offers an inspiring collection of [mostly others'] nalbinding projects (btw I use the form "nalbinding" but just because I felt like picking one and being somewhat consistent; I do not assert that it is better than others for any reason beyond being one of the easier forms to input on a strictly English keyboard)
• and one of the (somewhat lacy) projects showcased in said post--looks like this other blogger may have many more posts on the topic
• (...also from that post, Online Guild of Weavers Spinners and Dyers)

*completely irrelevantly to everybody, they count Kentucky in the "Northern USA" region (basically the so-called midwest), by which I feel semi-vindicated for ridiculous reasons. (It is my opinion that insofar as it fits in with other states Kentucky is largely either (southern) Midwest--in common with its neighbors across the Ohio River-- or Appalachian in character, depending on where you are in it, and not as southern as a many people like to claim. If you count Missouri as Midwest, Kentucky should be in there too.)